I’ve decided I really need to do something about my weight. Cause you know, I’m fat. A few weeks ago, I had to buy new outfits one size bigger than the largest size I have. It’s the biggest size I’ve ever bought. I pretty much let myself go a few years back and told myself that I’d rather eat everything I want and be happy about it than trying to look good at 40+ years of age. But the fact is, I have to at least keep my weight at status quo because I can’t afford to spend more money on buying new set of clothes one size bigger periodically. Yeah, it’s all about money. Who cares if I look good or not?

I know everything there is to know about how to lose weight and to keep it off the right way, having read books after books and worked with personal trainers and nutritionist as a long time card-carrying member of gyms when I cared about how I looked. In theory, that is. The problem I have now, and I think it’s a problem a lot of people face, is that in reality, the life really gets in the way, and a lot of times, it’s not just a poor excuse.

Not being able to really do what I need to do to eat healthy, get enough exercise, change life style, etc, I have to make do with what I CAN do. And I decided that I needed to just start with what I can as soon as possible, and not wait until I come up with a complete satisfactory plan.

So I started a partially official diet… or something similar to it where I have a salad bar lunch at the cafeteria every weekday. I am being careful not to overdo the dressing or cheese or croutons. I add a few chicken strips as well because I don’t feel full at all without it. Although I don’t really know if it’s low enough calorie, but I figure it’s better than what I usually eat at the cafeteria. We’ll see what happens.

Dinner is a little bit tricky because I don’t have the time or energy to cook something. I don’t even want to deal with cleaning vegetables or anything like that. I’ve tried it before many times, but I just end up wasting the ingredients. So for now I’m going to be eating Lean Cuisine, Smart Ones and Healthy Choice even if I have to eat two of them.

I haven’t decided on breakfast or “snacks” yet. I usually don’t have the time to eat in the morning since I keep waking up at night, which makes me toss and turn until I absolutely have to get out of bed. I know I HAVE to eat breakfast though if I’m to lose weight… Well, I’ll think of something later.

I designated Saturday as eat-what-I-want day, and had a steak lunch and dinner. Yeah, I didn’t need to have the steak twice one day, but I had to cook both since they were packaged together, frozen and thawed together. I had Lean Cuisine stuff today, and Sunday meals would probably consist of those.

Now, the other part of losing weight – exercise. I’ll try to exercise on weekends, the emphasis on “try”. Couldn’t peel my ass off the couch or bed today or yesterday.